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January
27th

Jack-in-the-Box

by: Ray Bradbury


He looked through the cold morning windows with the Jack-in-the-Box in his Hands, prying the rusted lid. But no matter how he struggled, the Jack would not jump to the light with a cry, or slap its velvet mittens in the air, or bob in a dozen directions with a wild and painted smile. Crushed under the lid, in its jail, it stayed crammed tight coil on coil. With your ear to the box, you felt pressure beneath, the fear and panic of the trapped toy. It was like hold someone's heart in your hand. Edwin could not tell if the box pulsed or his own blood beat against the lid.

He threw the box down and looked into the window. Outside the window the trees surrounded the house which surrounded Edwin. He could not see beyond the trees. If he tried to find another world beyond them, the trees wove themselves thick with the wind, to still his curiosity, to stop his eyes.

"Edwin!" Behind him, Mother's waiting, nervous breath as she drank her breakfast coffee. "Stop staring. Come eat."

"No," he whispered.
"What?" a stiffened rustle. She must have turned. "Which is more important, breakfast or that window?"
"The window..." he whispered and sent his gaze running the paths and trails he had tried for thirteen years. Was it true that the trees flowed on ten thousand miles to nothingness? He could not say. His sight returned defeated, to the lawn, the steps, his hands trembling on the pane.

He turned to eat his tasteless apricots, alone with his mother in the vast and echoing breakfast room. Five thousand mornings at this table, this window, and no movement beyond the trees.

The two of them ate silently.

She was the pale woman that no one but the birds saw in the old country houses in fourth-floor cupola windows, each morning at six, each afternoon at nine and also passing by one minute after midnight, there she would be, in her tower, silent and white, high and alone and quiet. It was like passing a deserted greenhouse in which one last wild blossum lifted its head to the moonlight.

And her child, Edwin, was the thistle that one breath of wind might unpod in a season of thistles. His hair was silken and his eyes were of a constant blue and feverish temperature. He had a haunted look, as if he slept poorely. He might fly apart like a pack of ladyfinger fireworks if a certain door slammed.

His mother began to talk, slowly and with great caution, then more rapidly, almost spitting at him.

"Why must you disobey every morning? I don't like your staring from the windows, do you hear? What do you want? Do you want to see them?" She cried, her fingers twitching. She was blazingly lovely, like an angry white flower. "Do you want to see the Beasts that run down paths and crush people like strawberries?"

Yes, he thought, I'd like to see the Beasts, horrible as they are.

"Do you want to got out there," She cried, "like your father did before you were born, and be killed as he was killed, struck down by one of those Terrors on the road, would you like that?"

"No..."

"Isn't it enought that they murdered your father? Why would you even think of those Beasts?" She motioned towards the forest. "Well, if you really want to die that much, go ahead!"

She quieted, but her fingers kept opening and closing on the tablecloth. "Edwin, Edwin, you father built every part of this World, it was beautiful for him, it should be for you. There's nothing, nothing beyond those trees but death; I won't have you near it. This is the World. There's no other world worth bothering with."

He nodded miserably.

"Smile now, and finish your toast," she said.

He ate slowly, with the window reflected in secret on his silver spoon.

"Mom...?" He couldn't say it. "What's...dying? You talk about it. is it a feeling?"

"To those who must live on after someone else, a bad feeling, yes." She stood up suddenly. "You're late for school! Run!"

He kissed her as he grabbed his books. "Bye!"

"Say Hello to teacher!"

He fled from her like a bullet from a gun. Up the endless staircases, through the passages, past windows that poured down dark gallery panels like white waterfalls. Up, up throught the layer-cake Worlds with the think frostings of Oriental rug between, and bright candles on top.

Form the highest stair he gazed down through the four intervals of the Universe.

Lowlands of Kitchen, dining room, parlor. Two Middle Countries of music, games, pictures and locked, forbidden rooms. And here -- he whirled -- the High-lands of picnics, advernture and learning. Here he roamed, idled, or sat singing lonely child sons on the winding journey to school.

This, then, was the universe. Father (or God, as mother often called him) had raised its mountains of wallpapered plaster long ago. This was Father-God's creation, in which stars blazed at the flick of a switch. And the sun was Mother, and Mother was the sun, about which all the Worlds swung, turning. And Edwin, a small dark meteor, spun up around through the dar carpets and shimmering tapestries of space. You saw him rise to vanish on vast comet staircases, on hikes and explorations.

Sometimes he and Mother picnicked in the Highlands, spread cool linens on red-tuffer Persian lawns, on crimson meadows in a rarefied plateau at the summit of the worlds where flaking portraits of sallow strangers looked meanlyt down on their eating and their revels. They drew water from silver taps in hidden tile niches, smashed the tumblers on hearthstones, shreaking. Played hide-and-seek in enchanted Upper Countries, in unknown, wild, and hidden lands, where she found him rolled like a mummy in a velvet window drape or under sheeted furniture like a rare plant protected from some wind. Once, lost, he wandered for hours in insane foothills of dust and echoes, where the hooks and hangers in the closet were hung only with night. But she found him and carried him weeping down through the leveling Universe to the parlor where dust motes, exact and familiar, fell in showers of sparks in the sunlit air.

He ran up a stair

Here he knocked a thousand thousand doors, all locked and forbidden. Here Picasso Ladies and Dali gentlemen screamed silently from canvas asylums, there gold eyes burning when he dawdled.

"Those thing live out there," His mother had said, pointing to the Dali-Picasso families.

Now running quickly past, he stuck out his tongue at them.

He stopped running.

One of the forbidden dorrs stood open.

Sunlight slanted warm through it, exciting him.

Beyond the door, a spiral satir screwed around up in sun and silence.

He stood, gasping. Year after year he had tried the doors that were always found locked. What would happen now if he shoved this one full open and climbed the stair? Was some Monster hiding at the top?

"Hello!"

His voice lept up around the spiraled sunlight. "Hello..." whispered a faint, lazy echo, high, high, and gone.

He moved through the door.

"Please, please, don't hurt me." He whispered to the high sunlit place.

He climbed, pausing with each step to wait for his punishment, eyes shut like a penitent. Faster now, he leapt around and around and up until his knees ached and his breath fountained in and out and his head banged like a bell and at last he reached the terrible summit of the climb and stood in an open, sun-drenched tower.

The sun struck his eyes a blow. Never, never so much sun! He stumbled to the iron rail.

"It's there!" His mouth opened fomr one direction to another."It's there!" He ran in a circle. "There!"

He was above the somber tree barier. For the first time he stood high over the windy chestnuts and elms and as far as he could see was green grass, green trees, and white ribbons on which beetles ran, and the other half of the World was blue and endless, with the sun lost and dropping away in an incredible deep blue room so vast he felt himself fall with it, screamed, and clutched the tower ledge, and beyond the trees, beyond the white ribbons where the beetles ran he saw things like fingers sticking up, but he saw no Dali-Picasso Terrors, he saw only some red-and-white-and-blue handkerchiefs fluttering high on great white poles.

He was suddenly sick; he was sick again.

Turning, he almost fell flat down the stairs.

He slammed the forbidden doors, Fell against it.

"You'll go blind." He crushed his hands to his eyes. "You shouldn't have seen, you shouldn't, you shouldn't!"

He fells to his knees, he lay on the floor twisted up tight, covered up. He need but wait a moment -- the blindness would come.

Five minutes later he stood at an ordinary highlands windows, looking out on his own familiar Garden World.

He saw once more the elms and hickory trees and the stone wall, and that forest which he had taken to be an endless wall itself, beyond which lay nothing but nightmare nothingness, mist, rain, and eternal night. Now it was certain, the Universe did not end with the forest. There were other Worlds than those contained in Highland or Lowland.

He tried the forbidden door again. Locked.

Had he really gone up? Had he discouvered those half-green, half-blue vastnesses. Had God seen him? Edwin trembled. God. God, who smoked mysterious black pipes and weilded magical walking sticks. God, who might be watching even now!

Erwin murmured, touching his cold face.

"I can still see. Thank you, thank you. I can still see."

At nine-thrity, a half an hour late, he rapped on the school door.

"Good morning, Teacher!"

The door swung open. Teacher waited in her tall, gray, thick clothed monks robe, the cowl hiding her face. She wore her usual silver spectacles. Her gray-gloved hands beckoned.

"You're late."

Beyond her the land of books burned in bright colors from the hearth. There were walls bricked with encyclopedias, and a fireplace in which you could stand without bumping your head. A log blazed fiercely.

The door closed, and there was a warm quiet. Here was the desk, where God had once sat, he'd walked this carpet, stuffing his pipe with rich tobacco, and scowled out that vast, stained-glass window. The room smelled of God, rubbed wood, tobacco, leather and silver coins. Here, Teacher's voice sang like a solemn harp, telling of God, the old days and the World when it had shaken with God's determination, trembled at his wit, when the world was abuiding under God's hand, a blueprint, a cry, and timber rising. God's fingerprints still lay like half-melted snowflakes on a dozen sharpened pencils in a locked glass display. They must never be touched lest the melt away forever.

Here, here in the Highlands, to the soft sound of teacher's voice running in, Edwin learnmed what was expected of him and his body. He was to grow into a Presence, he must fit the odors and trumpet voice of God. He must somecday stand tall and burning with pale fire at this high window to shout dust off the beams of the World; he must be God himself! Nothing must prevent it. Not the sky or the trees or the Things beyond the trees.

Teacher moved like a vapor in the room.

"Why are you late, Edwin?"

"I don't know"

"I'll ask you again. Edwin, why are you late?"

"One of the forbidden doors was open..."

He heard the hiss of Teacher's breath. he say her slowly slide back and sink into the large, hand-carved chair, swallowed by darkness, her glasses flashing light before they vanished. He felt her looking out at him from shadow and her voice was numbed and so like a voice he heard at night, his own voice crying just before he woke from some nightmare. :Which door, Where?" she said. "Oh, it must be locked!"

"The door by the Dali-Picasso people," he said, in panic. He and Teacher had always been friends. Was that finished now? Had he spoiled things? "I climbed the stair, I had to, I had to! I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Please, don't tell mother!"

Teacher sat lost in the hollow chair, in the hollow cowl, her glasses made faint firefly glitters in the well where she moved alone. "And what did you see up there?" She murmered. "A big blue room!" "Did you?" "And a green one, and ribbons with bugs running on them, but I didn't, I didn't stay long, I swea, I swear!"

Green room, ribbons, yes ribbons, and little bugs runnning along them, yes." She said, and her voice made him said.

He reached for her hand, but it fells away to her lap and groped back, in darkness, to her breast. "I cam right down, I locked the door, I won't go look again, ever!" he cried.

Her voice was so faint he could hardly hear what she said. "But now you've seen, and you'll want to see more, and you'll always be curious now." The cowl moved slowly back and forth. Its deepness turned towards him, questioning. "Did you like what you saw?"

"I was scared. It was big."

"Big, yes, too big. Large, large, so large, Edwin. Not like our World. Big, large, uncertain. Oh, why did you do this! you knew it was wrong!"

The fire bloomed and withered on the hearth while she waited for his answer and finally when he could not answer she said, as if her lips were barely moving, "Is it your mother?"

"I don't know!"

"Is she nervous, is she mean, does she snap at you, does she hold you too tight, do you want time alone, is that it, is that it, is that it?"

"Yes, yes!" he sobbed, wildy.

"Is that why you ran off, she demands all your time, all your thoughts?" Lost and sad, her voice. "Tell me..."

His hands had gone sticky with tears. "Yes!" He bit his fingers and the backs of his hands. "Yes!" It was wrong to admit such things, but he didn't have to say them now, she said them, she said them, and all he must do is agree, shake his ead, bite his knuckles, cry out between sobs.

Teacher was a million years old.

"We learn," she said, wearily. Rousing from her chair, she moved with a slow swaying of the gray robes to the desk where her gloved hand searched a long time to find pen and paper. "We learn, Oh God, but slowly, and with pain, we learn. We think we do right, but all the time, all the time, we kill the Plan....." She hissed her breath, jere her head up suddenly. The cowl looked completely empty, shivering.

She wrote words on the paper.

"Give this to your mother. It tells her you must have two full hours every afternoon to yourself, to prowl wherever you wish. Anywhere. Except out there. Are you listening child?

"yes." He dried his face. "But --"

"Go on."

"Did Mother lie to me about out there, and the Beasts?

"Look at me," she said. "I've been your friend, I've never beaten you, as your mother sometimes must. We're both here to help you understand and grow so you won't be destroyed as God was."

She arose, and in rising, turned the cowl in such a way that color from the hearth washed over her face. Swiftly, the firelight erased her many wrinkles.

Edwin gasped. His heart gave a jolting thump. "The fire!"

Teacher froze

"The fire!" Edwin looked at the fire and back to her face. The cowl jerked away from his gaze, the face vanishing in the deep well, gone. "Your face," said Edwin numbly. "You look like mother!"

She moved swiftly to the books, seizing one down. She talked to the shelves in her high, singing monotonous voice. "Women look alike, you know that! Forget it! Here, here!" and she brought him the book. "Read the first chapter! Read the diary!"

Edwin took the book but did not feel its weight in his hands. The fire rumbled and sucked itself brilliantly up the flue as he began to read and as he read Teacher sank back down and settled and quieted and the more he read the more the gray cowl nodded and became serene, the hidden face like a clapper gone solemn in its bell. Firelight ignighted the gold animal lettering of the shelved books as he read and he spoke the words but was reall thinking of these books from which pages had been razored, and clipped, certain lines erased, certain pictures torn, the leather jaws of some books glued tight, others like mad dogs muzzled in hard bronze straps to keep him away. All this he thought while his lips moved through the fire-quiet.

"In the Beginnning was God, who created the Universe, and the Worlds within the Universe, The Continents within the Worlds and the Lands within the Continents, an shaped fom his mind and hand his loving wife and child who in time would be God himself..."

Teacher nodded slowly. The fire fell softly away to slumbering coals. Edwin read on.

Down the Banister, breathless, he slid into the parlor. "Mom, Mom!"

She lay in a plump maroon chair, breathless, as if she, too, had run a great way.

Mom, mom, you're soaking wet!"

"Am I?" SHe said, as if it was his fault she'd been rushing about. "So I am, so I am." She took a deep breath and sighed. Then she took his hands and kissed each one. She looked at him steadily, her eyes dilating. "Well now, liten here, I've a surprise! Do you know what's coming tomorrow? You can't guess! Your birthday!"

"But it's only been ten months!"

"Tomorrow it is!" Do us wonders, I say. And anything I say is so really is so, my dear."

She laughed

"And we open another secret room?" He was dazed.

"The fourteenth room, yes! Fifteenth next year, sixteenth, seventeenth and so on and on until you twenty-first birthday, Edwin! Then, oh, then we'll open up the triple-locked doors to the most important rom and you'll be Man of the House, Father, God, Ruler of the Universe!"

"Hey," He said. And, "Hey!" He tossed his books straight up in the air. They exploded like a great pack of doves, whistling. He laughed. She laughed. Their laughter flew and fell with the books. He ran to scream down the banister again.

At the bottom of the stairs she waited, arms wide, to catch him.

Edwin lay on his moonlit bed and his fingers pried at the Jack-in-the-Box, but the lid stayed shut; he turned it in his hands, blindly, but did not look down at it. Tomorrow, his birthday -- but why? Was he that good? No. WHy then, should the birthday come so soon? Well, simply because things had gotten, what was the word you could use? Nervous? Yes, things had begun to shimmer by day as well as by night. H saw the white tremor, the moonlight sifting down and down of an invisible snow on his mother's face. It would take yet another of his birthdays to quiet her again.

"My birthdays," he said to the ceiling, "will come quicker from now on. I know, I know. Mom laughs so loud, so much, and her eyes are funny..."


Would teacher be invited to the party? No. Mother and Teacher had never met. "Why not?" "Because," said Mom. "Don't you want to meet Mom, Teacher?" "Some day," said teach faintly, blowing off like cobnwebs in the hall, "Some...day..."

And where did teacher go at night? Did she drift through all those secret mountain countries high up near the moon where the chandeliers were skinned blind with dust, or did she wander out beyond the trees that lay beyond the trees that lay beyond the trees that lay beyond the trees? No hardly that!"

He twisted the toy in his sweating hands. Last year, when things began to tremble and quiver, hadn't mother advanced his birthday several months, too? Yes, oh, yes, yes.

Think of something else. God. God building cold midnight cellar, sunbaked attic, and all miracles in between. Think of the hour of his death, the crushed by some monstrous beetle beyond the wall. Oh, how the Worlds must have rocked with his passing!"

Edwin moved the jack-in-the-Box to his face, whispering against the lid, "Hello! Hello! Hello, hello..."

No answer save the sprung-tight coiled in tension there. I'll get you out, thought Edwin. Just wait, just wait. It may hurt, but there's only one way. Here, here..."

And he moved from bed to window and leaned far out, looking down to the marbled walk in the moonlight. He raised the box high, felt the sweat trickle from his armpit, felt his fingers clench, felt his arm jerk. He flung the box out, shouting. The box tumbled in the cold air, down. It took a long time to strike the marble pavement.

Edwin bent still further, gasping.

"Well?" He cried. Well?" and again, "You there!" and "You!"

The echoes faded. The box lay in the forest shadows. He could not see if the crash had broken it wide. He could not see if jack had risen, smiling from its hidious jail, or if it bobbed upon the wind, now this way, that, this way, that, its silver bells jingling softly. He listened. H stood by the window for an hour staring, listening, and at last went back to bed.

Morning. Bright voices moved near and far, in and out the Kitchen World. and Edwin opened his eyes. Whose voices, now whose could they be? Some of God's workmen? The Dali people? But Mother hated them; no. The voices faded in a humming roar. Silence. And from a great distance, a running, running grew louder and still louder until the door burst open.

"Happy Birthday!"

They danced, they ate frosted cookies, they bit lemon ices, they drank pink wines, and there stood his name on a snow-powdered cake as Mother corded the piano into an avalanche of sound and opened her mouth to sing, then whirled to seize him away to more strawberies, more wines, more laughter that shoook chandeliers into a trembling rain. Then, a silver key flourished, they raced to unlock the fourteenth forbidden door.

"Ready! Hold on!"

The door whispered into the wall

"Oh," said Edwin.

For, disapointingly enough, this fourteenth room was nothing at all but a dusty dull-brown closet. It promised nothing as had the rooms given to him on other anniversaries! His sixth birthday, now, had been the schoolroom in the Highlands. On his seventh birthday, he had opened the playroom in the Lowlands. Eighth, the music room; ninth, the miraculous, hell-fire kitchen! Tenth was the room where phonographs hissed in a continuous exhalation of ghosts singing on a gently wind. Eleventh was the vast green diamond room of the garden with a carpet that had to be cut instead of swept!

Oh, don't be disapointed; move!" Mother, laughing, pushed him in the closet. "Wait till you see how magical! Shut the door!"

She thrust a red button flush with the wall.

Edwin shrieked "No!"

For the room was quivering, working, like a mouth that held them in iron jaws; the room moved the wall slid away below.

"Oh, hush now, darling," she said. The door drifted down through the floor, and a long insanely vacant wall slithered by like an endless rustling snake to bring another door and another door with it that did not stop but travelled on while Edwin screamed and clutched his mother's waist. The room whined and cleared its throat somewhere; the trembling ceased, the room stood still. Edwin stared at the strange new door, and heard his mother say go on, open it, there, now, there. And the new door gaped upon still further mystery. Edwin blinked.

"The Highlands! This is the Highlands! How did we get here? Where's the Parlor, Mom, where the parlor?"

She fetched him out throught the door. "We jumped straight up, and we flew. Once a week, you'll fly to school instead of running the long way around!"

He still could not move, but only stood looking at the mystery of Land exchanged for Land, of Country replaced by higher and further Country.

"Oh, Mother, Mother..." He said.

It was a sweet long time in the deep grass of the garden where they idled most deliciously, sipped huge cupfuls of apple cider with their elbows on crimson silk cushions, their shoes kicked off, their toes embedded in sour dandelions, sweet clover. Mother jumped twice when she heard Monsters roar beyond the forest. Edwin kissed her cheek. "It's alright," he said, "I'll protect you."

"I know you will," she said, but she turned to gaze at the pattern of trees, as if anyy moment the chaos out there might smash the forest with a blow and stamp its Titan's foot down and grind them to dust.

Later in the long blue afternoon, they saw a chromium bird thing fly through a bright rift in the trees, high and roaring. They ran for the parlor, heads bent as before a green storm of lightening and rain, feeling the sound pour blinding showers to drench them.

Crackle, crackle -- the birthday burnt away to cellophane nothingness. At sunset, in the dim soft Parlor Country, Mother inhaled champagne with her tiny sedling nostrils and her pale summer-rose mouth, then, drowsy-wild, herded Edwin off to his room and shut him in.

He undressed in slow-pantomimed wonder, thinking, this year, next year, and which room two years, three years, from today? What about the Beasts, the Monsters? And being Mashed and God killed? What was killed? What was Death? Was Death a feeling? Did God enjoy it so much that he never came back? Was Death a journey then?

In the hallway, on her way downstairs, Mother dropped a champagne bottle. Edwin heard and was cold, for the thought that jumped through his head was, that's how Mother'd sound. If she fell, if she broke, you'd find a million fragments in the morning. Bright crystal and clear wine on the parquet flooring, that's all you'd see at dawn.

Morning was the smell of vines and grapes and moss in his room, a smell of shadowed coolness. Downstairs, breakfast was in all probability, at this instant, manifesting itself in a fingersnap on the wintry tables.

Edwin got up to wash and dress and wait, feeling fine. Now things would be fresh and new for at least a month. Today, like all days, there'd be breakfast, school, lunch, songs in the music room, an hour or two at the electrical games, then -- tea in the Outlands, on the luminous grass. Then up to school again for a late hour or so, where he and Teacher might prowl the censored library together and he'd puzzle and think about the world out there that had been censored from his eyes.

He had forgotten Teacher's note. Now, he must give it to Mother.

He opened the door. The hall was empty. Down through the deeps of the Worlds, a soft mist floated, through a silencce which no footsteps broke; the hills were quiet; the silver fonts did not pulse in the first sunlight and the banister, coiling up from the mists, was prehistoric monster peering into his room. He pulled away from this creature, looking to find Mother, like a white boat, drifted by the dawn tides and vapors below.

She was not there. He hurried down throught the hushed lands, calling, "Mother!"

He found her in the parlor, collapsed on the floor in her shiny green-gold party dress, a champagne goblet in one hand, the carpet littered with broken glass.

She was obviously asleep, so he sat at the magical breakfast table. He blinked at the empty white cloth and the gleaming plates. There was no food. All his life wondrous foods had awaited him here. But not today.

"Mother, wake up!" He ran to her. "Shall I go to school? Where's the food? Wake up!"

He ran up the stairs.

The Highlands were cold and shadowed, and the white glass suns no longer glowed from the ceilings in this day of sullen fog. Down dark corridors, hrough dim continents of silence, Edwin rushed. He rapped an rapped at he school door. It drifted in, whining, by itself.

The school lay empty and dark. No fire crackled in the hearth to toss shadows on the beamed ceiling. There was not a crackle or a whisper. "Teacher?"

He poised in the center of the flat, cold room.

"Teacher!" He screamed.

He slashed the drapes aside; a faint shaft of sunlight fell through the stained glass.

Edwin gestured. He commanded the firs to explode like a popcorn kernel on the hearth. He commanded it to bloom to life! He shut his eyes, to give teacher time to appear. He opened his eyes and was stupefied at what he saw on her desk.

Neatly folded was the gray cowl and cape, atop which gleamed her silver spectacles, and one gray glove. He touched them. One gray glove was gone. A piece of greasy cosmetic chalk lay on the robe. Testing, he made dark lines on his hands.

He drew back, staring at teacher's empty robe the glasses, the greasy chalk. His hands touched the knob of a door which had always been locked. The door swung slowly wide. he looked int a small brown closet.

"Teacher!"

He ran in, the door crashed shut, he pressed a red button. The room sank down, and with it slow mortal coldness. The world was silent, quiet and cool. Teacher gone and Mother -- sleeping. Down fells the room, with him in its iron jaws.

Machinery clashed. a door slid open. Edwin ran out.

The parlor!

Behind was not a door, but a tall oak panel from which he had emerged.

Moter lay uncaring, asleep. Folded under her, barely showing as he rolled her over, was one of Teacher's soft gray gloves.

He stood near her, holding the incredible glove, for a long time. Finally, he began to whimper.

He fled back to the Highlands. The hearth was cold, the room empty. He waited. Teacher did not come. He ran down again and again to the solemn Lowlands, commanded the table to fill with steaming dishes! Nothing happened. He sat by his mother, talking and pleading with her and touching her, and her hands were cold.

The clock ticked and the light changed in the sky and still she did not move, and he was hungry and the silent dust dropped down on the air through all the Worlds. He thought of Teacher and knew that if she was in none of the hills and mountains above, then there was only one place she could be. She had wandered, by error into the Outlands, lost until someone found her. And so he must go out, call after her, bring her back to wake Mother, or she would lie here forever with the dust falling in the great darkened spaces.

Through the kitchen, out back he found late afternoon sun and the Beaasts hooting faintly beyond the rim of the World. He clung to the garden wall, not daring to let go, and in the shadows, at a distance, he saw the shattered box he had flung from the window. Freckles of sunlight quivered on the broken lid and touched tremblingly over and over the face of the Jack jumped out and sprawled with its arms overhead in an eteranl gesture of freedom. The doll smiled and did not smile, smiled and did not smile, as the sun winked on its mouth, and Edwin stood, hypnotized, above and beyond it. The doll opened its arms toward the path that led offbetween the secret trees, the forbidden path smeared with oily droppoings of the Beasts. but the path lay silent and the sun warmed Edwin and he heard the wind blow softly in the trees. As last, he let go of the garden wall.

"Teacher?"

He edged along the path a few feet.

"Teacher!"

His shoes sliped on the animal droppings, and he stared far down the motionless tunnel, blindly. The path moved under, the trees moved over him.

"Teacher!"

He walked slowly but steadily. He turned Behind him lay his World and its very new silence. It was deminished, it was small! How strange to see it less than it had been. It had always and forever seemed so large. He felt his heart stop. He stepped back. But then, afraid of that silence in the World, he turned to face the forest path ahead.

Everything before him was new. Odors filled his nostrils, colors, odd shapes, incredible sizes filled his eyes.

If I run beyond the trees I'll die, he thought, for that's what Mother said. You'll die, you'll die.

But what's dying? Another room? A blue room, a green room, far larger than all the rooms that ever were! But where's the key? There, far ahead, a large half-open iron door, a wrought-iron gate. Beyond a room as large as the sky, all colored green with trees and grass! Oh, Mother, Teacher...

He rushed, stumbled, fell, got up, ran again, his numb legs under him were left behind as he fell down and down the side of a hill, the path gone, wailing crying, then not wailing or crying anymore but making new sounds. He reached the great rusted, screaming iron gate, leapt through; the Universe dwindled behind, he did not look back at his old Worlds, but ran as they withered and vanished.

. . . .